I was looking through the old posts I had in this blog and realised that I missed blogging so so much. Many things have changed.Some things though, still remain the same. All in all, these moments, both of glory and failure, I had failed to capture in words here..and that's a little sad....

It's a little disappointing that, after so many months, I am still doing what I have been doing way before I graduated, which is temping at my old workplace. I saw some of my friends who had on office clothes and assume that they must already have joined the workforce, while I am still stuck temping while waiting for a career opportunity to come knocking on my door...

*I am wishing for something real hard right now, so let's take a pause, while I wish hard*

As I was saying earlier, it makes me demoralised that I am not landing a job that I am supposed to have...haiz, I hope I get one real soon..

*wishes hard again*

Anw, to all my uni friends who have embarked on a journey in the working world, all the best, enjoy, work hard and remember to take rests too, you guys deserve it after working hard..:))

to the rest of you: good day:)

I realised that I have not been reading books for a very very very long time. That means, I have been temporarily (In this case, a long, temporary) cut off from my supply of good or acceptable vocabulary. It is indeed depressing to know that I am using the same words to describe 3 different things...and just as I am typing this, I just recalled that I have mentioned this topic before, I think several years ago....hmm...

I was just about to take a break from the June holiday programmes rush, when a cloud of storm seems to be forming again for the July Singapore Garden Festival's children programmes. A small part of me is dreading the rush, but another part of me is kind of anticipating this moment. It's like, I cannot wait to go back to work so that I can settle stuffs and just be happy to be surrounded by work. hoho, I should have taken this job on a full- time basis right? But I know that what I'm dealing now is just part of the actual thing, so, I don't think I want to stress myself up further by taking this as a full time job.

In case any of you don't get what I'm saying above, my advice to you would be, 'IGNORE'. you know why? Cos if you want me to explain it here, it's going to be long and boring. Besides, like the popular saying goes, 'Ignorance is bliss'..Don't you want to lead blissful and happy lives people?:))

There's this stye which had been stuck on my upper right eyelid for a very long time. Now, another had formed on the bottom lid of my left eye and it hurts when I poke it, and I don't know why, despite the pain, I have this tendency to keep poking it.Things that don't belong, deserves bad treatment. So I poked it cos it didn't belong there. Anyway, I tried googling up on Styes, and when they said that if a stye appears on the lower eyelid, close to the nose, I should seek medical attention.

When I read that, I ran to my mom, and told her about it. Alas, she still didn't allow me to visit the doctor, saying that they are just going to give me eye mo..aaaaa!I want to get my eyes checked.boo hoo. I was upset and worried, until I re-read the article and realised that ONLY if the stye is on the lower eyelid CLOSE TO THE NOSE...ahhh, mine is not even near the nose, so I guess it's still ok...right?

Anyway, rather than the eye, I think finding a job is my next greatest concern. ANyone who knows of any opening for HR, do inform me aite? Thank you so much.I love people, I love you and you and you.tata, bye bye, good night.eh,morning.;)

Sometimes, we get so busy, we have no time to think about others...what they think of us, how our actions affect them, why people do certain things to us...and so on. If we were to stop and observe, we would soon realise that everyone has a motive for doing things. Be it for a good or bad cause, they all do things for a reason. Sadly enough, we are too preoccupied by the day-to-day going-ons in our lives that we are blinded and hence, major stuffs like these can slip right under our noses.

Work has been hectic over the past few weeks. Just working for these few weeks made me learn something about the working life. It is a form of interactive web, where no matter what the circumstance is, you have to communicate and interact with people. Thus, it is inevitable at times, to get scolded or mocked at.It is once again, up to us to decide if we want to take those mockings as a basis for improvement, or to just let it slip into the right ear and exit through the left. Some people complain all day about work. But maybe, they should just stop, think, make minor changes here and there and see how that improves their situation. But fact is, people hate changes. Some are so used to routines that a slight change upsets them greatly. All that, is up to the individual... to do...or die. and those are all, survival skills...buat I have yet to learn more and I am anticipating the upcoming challenges and treat them as a stepping stone to gain more experience which I could apply in the future. Not all challenges are pleasant, that much, I have learnt, and learnt well, but when we are able to overcome those challenges, that's when we get to taste the sweet fruit of success and accomplishment.And that, I am determined to achieve.

ok, enough about all these motivational talks...Life can be sweet but mostly, they are bitter. So let's fight through this bitterness to enjoy a small part of its sweetness.cheerios people!:))

The more IT savvy I get, the lazier I become. Take for example blogging...Now with the availability of free wireless connection in most public places and with the support of devices such as I-Touch and handphones, I am supposed to be able to blog anywhere and anytime I want right? Wrong. I just get too lazy to blog. Actually, it's not that I don't want to blog. 1stly, i think typing on a keyboard is way faster and easier than typing on a touch screen. You just get super irritated with the typos...seriously...2ndly, I think I am more comfortable staring at a wide screen than a small screen like those on the I-touches or I-phones and other handphones...I have to enlarge certain parts which I want to read and that results to me forgetting what I read previously..arrrghh... 3rdly and most importantly, privacy. When I type things in the train or bus, I always have the suspicion that people behind or beside me is reading from the corner of their eyes. hah... So, you'll seldom see me blog much.

I am currently temp-ing at my part-time place...and I don't feel like a temp anymore. I feel like a full timer. arrghh, my main concern is whether I get enough rest (which, i obviously do not) and whether I am paid equal to my input (Which I hope I am)..I think.....I am not ready for the working world yet..can I please rest for another 2 months?*shuts eyes tight and prays*

I've been eating too much ice-cream lately..Cone ice cream in the day, stick ice-cream in the afternoon(make that TWO stick ice creams) a cup ice cream at night. My mom got so sick of seeing me eat ice cream, that even as I was walking with 2 pieces of Jacob's biscuit, she scolded me thinking I was eating ice-cream...it was that bad...

And the worse part is..even when I don't eat ice cream at home...I EAT THEM OUTSIDE! Just now, while in town, the boyfriend suggested eating ice-cream, I thought of declining, but the next moment I knew, I was already paying for 2 sundaes...HMMM...i am wondering now, what's the purpose of me complaining here...or was I trying to show off? no no no no..i don't think so.

ok, I am tired now, went to neu look just now and tried most of the shoes there. Since I had no money, the least I could do is just get the aderaline rush from trying out shoes that fit my feet.lol..pathetic eh? no matter what, since it makes me super high, I shall not think of it as pathetic...that's the actual meaning of retail teraphy.:)

ok, i am tired now (and I know I repeated this the 2nd time) so, i am going to jump into my bed and say hello to my pillows...goodbye to u ,people of the earth for now...MUUACCKKXX!:D:D

Below are some words which I used to (or may still be!)spell wrongly...haha..just typing this for fun..The ones in the brackets are those I often spelt it like.

1. Mississippi (missisipi)
2. Souvenir (souveneir)
3. Weather (Wheather)
4. Business (Buisness)
5.contagious (contageous)
6. Convenience (convienience)

Right at this point of time, I cannot think of any more words. Not that it means that I spell the rest or the words right, I just don't want to demoralise myself further by putting more words which I cannot spell.hahah...tk betol.

Anw, I feel like a teenager again!woohoo!!why?cos my face is breaking out in pimples.they say, only the young experience such.so, I'm still young! uh-huh. uh-huh...HAHA.

Even though it's just a few days away...I'm not prepared to be 22.seriously.I'm not even prepared to be 20 in the first place.wth.

It can be a great disappointment when at times, things change, not for the better, but for the worse.I think that is why some people hate changes: they just don't make things any better, they just create this wall of ambiguity, this foggy future, that no one can predict.

When these kinds of things happen, I cannot say that I am the happiest person to embrace change. After all, if it's not going to benefit me now, why should I believe it will in the future?

Anw, I am not talking much sense, am I? It's just that, although life goes through a series of evolution, mine is more like of an underground volcano waiting to erupt. you know things are not going to go well, but you don't know when is it going to get any worse and finally, just blow up.hmm....i hate this...

Moving on (In life, don't dwell too long on unhappiness, instead look on the brighter side), since I had finished school and I had a few days before I started working, I had been slacking at home practically most of the time. I was ambitious and borrowed 2 books, but somehow, they bring no interest of any sort to me. Thus, I lay them to rest and collect dust on my desk. Maybe I'll just return them when they are due. LOL.

Just started watching Korean dramas, and the one I am currently tuned in is really digging into my funny bones. I find myself laughing till I rocked in my chair...and my chair is not even a rocking chair to begin with. and if anyone were to see me laugh like that, I can assure you they'd run away in fright.ok.that's too much.maybe they'll just get disgusted or something.

BUT, those are great stress relievers and time-passers. haha, just by haha-ing away, I managed to pass an entire day without even noticing much.eeeeeeee!!!*computer freak* so, I will continune watchng the rest of the episodes and hope and pray that the computer doesn't just die on me or something. Cos there had been popups which tells me that my C drive is running out of space. but I have no idea what to delete or what to do...so if anyone has a clue what to do, please please do help me out here yeah? to think back, my laptop is reaching into its 5th year, so...it's kind of understandable.......right?:S

and finally, after a long-but-not-so-long hiatus, I, Nur Fattanah Kasim am finally back for some real action!weehoo!! well, it sounds as if my life is exciting, when in reality, it's not. All I did all these past few weeks was to write notes, eat, sleep, then stress myself up, complain about my thumbprint which was about to disappear from my thumb due to too much writing, and then write more notes and eat and...yeah, u can predict the rest.. then, after all that, came the mugging. Gosh, I swear my brain got drier and drier each time new info got into my head. And at that point of time, I wished I could just stuff a drawer or a shelf to organise what I studied.

On the exam day itself, I got so nervous, my mind went blank. So I kept closing my eyes and imagine the chapters that I studied for were all stored in separate drawers. So, if I had to retrieve any info from a particular chapter, I just had to 'open' the drawer that belongs to that chapter. Oh my, the crazy things crazy people do...BUT, I'm not crazy ok.lol.

BUT now that I am finally free, I can blog all I want, eat all I want, laugh till my jaw bones crack and even watch online movies till my eyeballs pop out.whoaaa....sounds amaazziinng!!

Hmm, last night before I fell asleep, I was wondering to myself, if our eyelashes actually grow...I mean, if it grows, then, why don't we have long/ super thick lashes....but yet, some facial centres claim that they can help to lengthen short eyelashes. I got the idea of trying to cut my eyelashes a little and see if it grows back to normal length..But after much thought, I decided against it..why? Cos I couldn't imagine myself with short prickly eyelashes....At least you can fake your eyebrows by drawing on it while you wait for it to grow..but eyelashes?what if they don't grow back? I'll look like a ghost and will have to start putting on fake eyelashes **looks up in horor, shrieks beyond 1000 decibels**

And so, I gave up thinking and went to sleep and had many many weird dreams... I must be a weird person...hmmm...